Lust

I struggle with lust more than I’d like to admit. I’ve been married faithfully and lovingly to my wife for 11 years, been off of porn for 13 years, never cheated physically on my wife and am wildly in love and attracted to her. But I do struggle with lust and am always one mistake away from disaster.

I’ve had numerous times where I’ve simply been deeply attracted to another woman, and struggled with it in my mind. Here’s how I’ve had to deal with it- I tell my wife I’m struggling with it. Then after that somehow God usually releases me from the intensity of the struggle. Thank God I have a wife who is not only beautiful and amazing but also a tremendous friend.

Matthew 5:27-30 “You have heard that it was said, ‘You shall not commit adultery.’ But I say to you that everyone who looks at a woman with lustful intent has already committed adultery with her in his heart. If your right eye causes you to sin, tear it out and throw it away. For it is better that you lose one of your members than that your whole body be thrown into hell. And if your right hand causes you to sin, cut it off and throw it away. For it is better that you lose one of your members than that your whole body go into hell. 

Confession…

I have a definite anger problem.  I occasionally lose my cool at my wife, and recently even got a little mad at my 3 day old baby daughter for waking me up at night.  I sometimes throw a mini tantrum to the point of slapping myself in the face.  I watched my 2 year old imitate me in doing that once and told her to stop, then recognized my hypocrisy and apologized.  

It’s important to say I haven’t committed acts of violence of any sort in the past 13 years of so- at least not since I was a junior in high school and picked a few fights with people here and there.

But this anger is a definite sin. No way to candy coat that.

James 1:19-21 Know this, my beloved brothers: let every person be quick to hear, slow to speak, slow to anger; for the anger of man does not produce the righteousness of God. Therefore put away all filthiness and rampant wickedness and receive with meekness the implanted word, which is able to save your souls.